typically my problem is that i don't feel inspired. well, this time i am, but i don't have the time/motivation to do it. =/ fuck my life.

i know i said i'd be around more, but it doesn't look like that's happened. =/ i got a job (full time) and i've been really busy with that, but i love it. =] maybe i'll find some time for art around my job, though. or maybe i'll just lurk for a while. if you ever just wanna chat, my aim is in my profile info, or if you don't have aim, message me and i'll send you my number so we can text. <3

yo, it's been a while. i think i might stick around a little longer this time. i really want to start doing more photography and possibly a new style of poetry, so we'll see where this goes.

as far as my poetry goes, you'll most likely see some stuff that's a little more upbeat than my older work. some of you won't like that. but as i've definitely become a happier person, my poetry will reflect that.

as for photography, can't tell ya what to look for, as i'm pretty much open to anything that comes my way right now. all i can say is that i'm pretty much on a color kick, so you'll see me get a little more creative with that.

any suggestions, tips, or [polite] criticisms would be greatly appreciated!

so it's been almost a year since i last updated this thing. i haven't even really been logging in here all that much. i'm not really into writing anymore. i'm taking the creative writing class at my school this year. i like my stories, but now we're in poetry and i'm majorly blocked. i've had my poetry published and won the Editor's choice award six times, and i can't write one frikkin poem for a stupid class. maybe cause my poetry's for me. whatever. i can't think of anything to write about. when we were mimicking styles, i could just bullshit the whole thing, but this time she just gave us the rhyme scheme and i'm dying. it's starting to make me hate poetry.

and i've been doing more painting cause i have a painting class this year. i hate the teacher. my paintings have been going up on artsonia, so i steal the ones i like from there and put them up here. not claiming that they're good or anything, but i like them. and i have the class with Garth, so that's cool. we did the Deathcab picture together and Foster won't get over it. she tells everyone. the other day Sandowich was in the class monitoring or whatever shit he does and she started going off about it. she likes everything. it's disgusting. and it pisses me off. if i could get away with it, i'd smack her so hard.

but anyway, school's been weird lately. i never hated it before, but this year it's like get me the hell out of here! but at the same time, i don't want to ever leave. after i graduate, my mom's kicking me out and i have nowhere to go. and i have no idea what i'm doing next year, so i'm pretty much screwed. i can be homeless. maybe then she'll be sorry. but whatever, let her be a bitch.

yeahhhhhh.. i'm still alive. in case you wondered. i've been busy. things have been okay, but my last night wasn't the best. in fact, it was just about the worst. but hey, that's how life goes, right? you put your all into something and you end up fucked. it's better to not even care about anything if it means not being hurt in the end. this has been Laura's pessimistic view of the day.

in other news, Garth got his lisence last Thrusday and can now serve as my personal [i can't spell this word and it's bothering me] i kind of like being able to go where i want when i want to go there. i'm gonna get fat from not walking anywhere anymore. XD but i'll probably be looking for a job soon and most likely i'll end up walking there. me with a job is so hard to comprehend.

stupid midterms this week. @.@ they're not that bad since i really only have one major test per day. tomorrow i hve gym and english. for gym we're doing a volleyball tournament. yes, we have a midterm for gym. stupid effin Mr. Corn. i hope he chokes on his own bile. after that i have english which should be pretty easy.

i'm just so blehhhhh. omg Josh was supposed to have sex with me today but we didn't. raincheck, i guess. kaythnxbai.